What is happening right now ?

I can't believe I myself now is having a crush on you. Everyday we text, I will always constantly wait for your reply. You are my brother, I can't like you even though we are not blood related. I will distance from myself from you from now on. I can't believe that I myself, today, waited for you at the hall after the performance had finished so that I can go home with you since we stay near. Well, I believe it's a small crush and I can get over with it. I hope you yourself also won't talk to me anymore. Just a few minutes ago, I texted you and you had never replied, I'm disappointed, sad and wanted to cry already. I can't believe what I have changed become to just because of you. Because of you, I have been trying to impress myself in front of you. I should really be distancing myself from you now. :'). It will be best for us.